Weaknesses&struggles

The last few weeks not only have the things I wrote in the last blog been bothering me, but also
another thing that has been coming up for about 8 years now. I have an eating disorder. I started losing weight when I was 12 years old and I was about 77 pounds (35 kilo's) until at least the age of 17 that is when I started gaining weight. Though it didn't end there. Instead of just gaining a bit it became over eating and longing for food. It is still a hard battle that I fight almost every day.
I feel like eating nothing at all or stuffing my face sometimes I give in to one and then I feel even worse. I'm finely up to a normal healthy weight, but the idea's in my head aren't it is not the weight that gives you an eating disorder or feeling ugly all the time it is feeling bad about yourself and wanting to be able to control something and this is my something. Of course I shouldn't try so hard to control something or even thinking I need to seeing God has control over everything and that He knows better then me and will be able to turn things right and that is something I cant do.
But I do understand now what the Lord means with He can work through our weaknesses for I
now really have to depend on Him for that and for taking care of me then as well as I can share now with others that have the same difficulty's and problems. But I still need a lot of prayer for this.

Lord thank You for letting me see how important it is to let things go.
Thank You for working through me and with me in my weaknesses so I have to depend on You.
And that when I do anything remotely important that not only I but everyone may and can know that it is all because and from You for on my own I will be far to weak. Thank You for revealing Yourself to me so that I can relay on You put my trust on You so that I have a firm foundation that will not fail. Lord I pray that You will give me strength when I am fighting again so that I can overcome the desire to do my own will instead of Your will. Give me the strength to talk about it with people that are facing the same problems so I might be able to help them out and talk about it an show that there is a way out with You Lord.
Lord I praise You for what You have done in my life and that You will keep working with in me. Thank You for Your promises found in Your word. And that I can trust in that and not what feelings tell me to. Thank You Lord for the people around me supporting me in prayers.
Thank You Lord for everything.
Amen.