friends?

Well the last few days there are two things going through my mind....
To bare a ring of power is to be alone well there are no rings of power so lets change that to bare a cross of power is to be alone.
I live in a house full of people and I've never felt more at home any where then here, but it is surprising how alone you can feel in a house full of people. The people who I live with are great, but when I hear about their friends back home I am jealous. For my "friends" back at the place I lived last time don't contact me in any way even when they are on-line and I try to talk to them they don't react though they just live an hour or so away though there are people all over the world living in Amsterdam in the same house as I live and their friends still let them know how they are doing and stuff like that... Why is it then so hard for people living near by?
To bare a cross of power is to be alone.
Though if that is true why do the other people have people close to them even though it doesn't matter where they are living?
I moved around enough to know that friendships don't last, but if you see that it can be different that there are people that can still keep in touch with others no matter the distance than why cant I? Is it me?
the second is just as much fun... The thing is everyone around me has an idea of what they want, or can do, or most important what God wants for them and from them everything is just quite clear to and for them. Though for me it's just as confusing as ever.
I don't want to go to school any more and don't know what I'm capable of or what God want for me when my time here is up.
Though I am incredibly grateful for being here in Amsterdam it is hard a lot of the time as well. But I am really thankful for my room mates here that I could share this with them last night to and that we could pray for all of this so it is all in the Lords hands now. And I'm thankful that I may know and know indeed that the Lord is faithful as well and that He will never abandon what His hand began. For He who began a good work will be faithful to complete it in you (me).

So thank You Lord for showing me how faithful You are and that indeed no matter what I'm going through You are still there...

Thank You for placing people these people in Amsterdam in my live so I will have somebody suporting me in prayer no matter where I am even though people may forget me if I move that I know that not everybody is like that and that there will be people comming in my life that I can really build on and that they can count on me to thanks for that Lord. And I will praise You Lord no matter what I will go through no matter how painful You are more then worthy to be praised! So thank You Lord for teaching me! Amen!