different

The last few days I have been thinking about a lot of things that come my way here in Amsterdam.

The first thing I have been thinking about was being different. Since I can remember I've called my self different though I still believe that I've been wondering what makes me different, whom am I different from and why is it so important to me that I am different? I believe that what makes me different is my relationship with God and people. Born in a Christian family it might not have seemed strange for me though it did not end there for within my school I was the most strange person for I believed in God and spoke my mind about that as well as of the world and people as well as children don't seem to like that. Though it doesn't make me different from Christians or at least it shouldn't. So form whom am I different? Though other Christians have a relationship with God and other people that doe not believe in Him it can still make me different in a few things... One is that though they might believe in God it doesn't mean that they have a relationship with Him for the devil believes in Him to, but it doesn't make us the same either. Though my choice to have a relationship with Him doesn't make me different from everyone I've been thinking of all of this a lot and of course came to the conclusion that my choices and experiences make me different. But why is it so important to me that I am?
When I made my own decision to follow Christ He changed me. He put a desire in me towards Him and His will and of being holy for He is holy and that is different. Plus I do not want to lose my own identity and the great thing is that the Lord doesn't want me to lose mine either which is a great blessing and different form any religion.
My identity in Christ is still my own even though I am dead and Christ lives in me. I do not have to give up my humanity or identity, but I find a new one in Him. And that is why for me it's nice to be different form everyone even from my brothers and sisters in the Lord.

The other thing I've been thinking about is hope. Why is hope important? When does hope become dangerous? What makes people hope? And where does my hope come from? Where do I fail in that?

I think hope is important for us humans because it gives us a feeling there is more to it, there is more to come... Or things can still change be different live is not over jet... That is also why it makes people hope.

Though the bible says something else about that.

Nothing makes sense! Everything is nonsense.
I have seen it all nothing makes sense! 3 What is there to show for all of our hard work here on this earth? 4.People come, and people go, but still the world never changes. 5 The sun comes up, the sun goes down; it hurries right back to where it started from. 6 The wind blows south, the wind blows north; round and round it blows over and over again. 7 All rivers empty into the sea, but it never spills over; one by one the rivers return to their source. Return to their source: Or flow into the sea.8 All of life is far more boring than words could ever say. Our eyes and our ears are never satisfied with what we see and hear. 9 Everything that happens has happened before; nothing is new, nothing under the sun. 10 Someone might say,Here is something new! But it happened before, long before we were born. 11 No one who lived in the past is remembered anymore,and everyone yet to be born will be forgotten too. -Ecclesiastes 1-

So when does hope become dangerous? I think if you place it in the wrong thing for hope is true and exists it can be a great thing if you don't put it on some thing other then the Lord. So on what or whom do I put my hope? I do put my hope on the Lord from Whom all things come. But my hope fails me often to, for I also then to put my hope on people on whom I can not trust for they fail just like me. That is also the danger factor why is hope dangerous if you put it on things other then the Lord? Because that hope fails you. For hope moves people to do things, but if hope fails then the thing your doing will to and you'll end up in a destructive cycle. Also to trust in the Lord is not a decision you have to make once, but it's one you have to make every day.

Lord I thank You for today and it's beautiful weather I want to thank You for giving me good health today so I can enjoy it to. I also want to pray Lord for all the churches today all my brothers and sisters that come together today to lift up Your name. Will You bless the services Lord and the ones that do the worship service and the pastors that tech of Your word. Will You speak through them so that peoples hearts will be touched and eyes opened and that all will be to bring glory and honor to You. Lord I also pray that You open my eyes and that You will teach me today again to put my trust and hope on You Lord for that is what I choose for today as well. Lord be with me when I work, have fun read, pray, sleep and use me Lord to be a living testimony for who You are and what You can do in peoples lives. Use me to show people Your love for them by me loving them Lord with a love that is natural and that You cant find in this world. Lord I pray for a blessing over this day for all the people working in the shelters today that they may be filled with Your love to glorify You and bring honor to You. Also for the people staying at the hostels that they might see You through Your children. And also for the rest of my brothers and sisters all over the world Lord be with them and give them what they need Lord watch over them Lord and use them today to bring others to You as well. I pray this in the name of Your son the Lord Jesus Christ who gave His own life so that we may live. Amen